Ok, forgive me but i really feel i need to write this down and not feel so alone.
I am on CD 34 no AF, small bleed at CD 24-27 which i think/hope might have been implantation.
But this morning BFN.
Worst thing is i have all the pregnancy symptoms, and they are getting stronger every day.
I feel totally wiped out, very sick, boobs have grown and very sore, have tiny cramps every now and then in tummy, bloated and generally feeling terrible (but in a nice way if i was going to get the BFP)
Seeing as a test should pick up hgc 3-4 days after implantation, i am now well past this and i did a test with a 10mlu so should be very sensitive.
Now i feel at a total loss, the Dr said last time to just wait a few months and maybe it's just hormones.
But the waiting is killing me, all people can say is 'maybe next month' or 'why not wait another week'. But have they ever been in this situation when every hour i feel very 'pregnant' and don't get a BFP i feel like a total failure.
I think i am going to give up trying for number 2. This is too hard.