Spunk me up! - Bus 18

[Juno231]

Come join us on our TTC journeys - all you need is a sense of humour!

Bus history:
June - 24 BFPs
July - 11 BFPs
August - 18 BFPs
September - 4 BFPs

Testing dates:
@2020mission - October 6th
@notyetamumbuttrying - October 6th
@Katao - October 9th
@minster2012 - October 12th
@nestinginNL - October 14th
@Vil10 - October 16th
@Franklydear - October 25th
@Juno231 - October 26th
@clairey844 - October 30th

@Missgoldilocks wooooooooo that's absolutely great news!!! So pleased for her & your family. Again if you've any questions if she has a stoma or anything then shout! But soooo pleased, and her it might be the "just relax & not worry about TTC" month that does it for you 🤞🏻ps, for your fella it is like drinking a normal cider so you can tell yourself you are drinking it's the psychological side of drinking I often need too, but they are still sugary so prob best to drink sugar free fizzy drink!

I'm gonna test tomorrow & if BFN then I will have a couple of wine spritzers

@Vil10 I'm with you totally & that's why the night before transfer I had wine & a g&t but cos we know it's only that TWW for us & we've already spent so much on it I feel like I ought to do it for those 2 weeks, but that said I've had a small spritzer 😂telling myself the same thing

If this is BFN then one embryo left & that's all of the inheritance we got left by DHs grandma, we were hoping it would be put to a legacy for her (doesn't really matter she had 10 great grandchildren anyway when she died) but kinda hoping it didn't use it all 🙁

@Missgoldilocks that is good to hear. I hope her treatment is straightforward x

Ok so got my repeated day 21 bloods results and my progesterone was good! So I had as good a chance as anyone this month just didn't get the bfp. On the downside I was pretty sure I did ovulate anyway because of ovulation pain and a definite postive opk. Thst has only happened once before so I'm fairly sure in the 7 months since I came off the pill I've I've only ovulated twice 😥

@Missgoldilocks That's good new indeed. Happy for you!

Question: is my cycle screwed up if I am getting egg whitish CM at 5DPO, when I've already ovulated twice already??

@Mosherchick I didn't think you could ovulate twice? At separate times I mean, rather than 2eggs being released together. Why do you think you have? I'm pretty sure you can have several attempts at ovulation though. Ive had months with several highs on opks.

I feel like such an idiot now. In my need to pee just woken up state this morning it turns out I muddled LH tests and pregnancy tests 😩 the packaging is exactly the same and in Dutch 🤦‍♀️

Just had a good cry for an hour tbh, now back to waiting and not knowing.

Considered deleting my MN account and disappearing 🤣 but I can’t be the first person ever to have done this.

So... no BFP yet 😢

@katao I know it sounds like I'm being ridiculous, but I had the pinching, the spotting and the EWCM twice within 3 3 or 4 days of each other this month. In between the two my CM went creamy and then EW again. Today, just the EWCM. Am I broken?

@nestinginNL oh no 😭 I was just about to congratulate u there and had to re read your last post. Ah I'm gutted for u.

Emotional here myself. Just see a girl I know post her exciting news, shes 12wks. I'd have been 12 wks now so her due date will be are mine 😭😭 it just hit me. Plus I was at the dentist again so I'm feeling very sorry for myself.

So had more cm today but DTD last night 👏 so could be sperm. It's a yellow colour too but proceive makes ur urine glow 🙈 nothing showing on opks. But will keep checking.

@sausage1990 think of u huni. Look after urself xx

Oh @NestinginNL you poor thing! That's so upsetting but an easy mistake. Hopefully you get your bfp in the morning!

@Mosherchick I'm not qualified to answer that 😂 I'm just remembering what Google told me when I googled multiple opk peaks (although turns out non of mine were proper peaks just highs) I've also had ewcm but bloods showed no ovulation.

@2alreadywantanother sounds like you are having a hard day 😘

Thanks everyone :) we are really happy

@Minster2012 let's hope I do get pregnant from not knowing when I ovulate 😂 that would be wonderful! How are you feeling? Do you think you'll get a positive tomorrow? Sorry you had to use a lot of oh grandma's inheritance that's shit. I've been looking up ivf now and wow the price is gonna kill us I think we will do it on finance if needed.

@NestinginNL nooooo don't delete us for that, just think, if you get a BFP tomorrow you can totally put it down to baby brain too as well as your other strange phone in freezer antics!

@Katao I don't think you HAVE to get pains & things every month for ovulation so if you don't get them next month don't be disheartened 😘

@Mosherchick I think the same as @Katao that your body can "try" and pop an egg out the first time then it's likely to be the second one, but can't actually ovulate twice and the CM isn't anything to worry about hun

@2alreadywantanother awww hun it's horrible isn't it. Sending big hugs, & just keep DTD & it will happen again xxx

Thanks for your support girls. I wanted to share my experience because it's not something that's talked about much and I feel like opening up the conversation can be helpful.

@Katao and Yes DH is honestly the best, I am so lucky to have him & I honestly couldn't have got through this without him 💕

@minster2012 I'm sorry its not looking so good for you, I'm keeping everything crossed that your body just needs a little more time. I know when I got my BFP it was the only cycle I had no symptoms at all and thought for sure I was out. I'm keeping everything crossed for you 🤞🏻🤞🏻

@Missgoldilocks wonderful darlin! So happy for you 😊
@Vil10 that's good then! Nice to have it in the back pocket 😉
@NestinginNL oh how disappointing! Sorry hun

@Missgoldilocks do you or OH have any children? If not then you should get at least one round on NHS, some areas it's up to 3 rounds or until you have a child, whichever comes first.

@Minster2012 I knew you'd be the same! You deserved those few drinks before though! Is that the embryo that your son was from?? That would be special❤️

@NestinginNL ohhhh god I'm so sorry!! An easy mistake though!! Fingers crossed it's a BFP tomorrow though!!

Has anyone ever used the wireless remote control vaginal vibrating balls? Me and OH have been saying to get one for ages but have never got round to it!

@Minster2012 I have a child who is 9 my partner doesn't have any but they said it doesn't matter because I have one we don't get it free :( it's so shit he deserves to be a dad so bad, but he's a dad to my son already because his sperm donor (I just can't calm him his dad) is such a waste of space 🙄 it makes me so angry that I got pregnant so easily with an absolute prickkkkk but this lovely man is having a hard time with it 😭

I also told my sister about you getting 4 eggs she seemed to think she needed like 20 eggs haha but after much research she found out nhs pulls all eggs even immature ones whereas her clinic won't pull anything below a certain size and maturity! Really hope it takes and she gets pregnant first go bless her quite exciting! I'll have to plan a trip next year July to Australia!! If I'm not pregnant haha

@sausage1999 so sorry to hear what you have been going through lovely, that's just awful :( so glad you've gotten the support you needed though xxxx the best of luck for you to fall quickly and have a sticky bean in the near future xx

👁👄👁 hello! TTC my 2nd DC and my OH's first! :D

@Vil10 yeah one embryo left that our son was made from the other of that 2 (though transferred to my friend) so it might be me that's more faulty that's the issue, but yes I sometimes think maybe it's meant to be from the same as him 🤞🏻

@Missgoldilocks oh bugger yes that's not fair 😩my clinic full fresh transfer IVF is around £4000-4500 how much are you looking at? Or there is access fertility which says "baby or refund" but is around £7000 I think and you can only do it under the age of 40. Yes one of my follicles "big Bertha" we called it as the scan showed it bigger than the others actually had nothing in it...nope tell her it's not the quantity it's definitely the quality. the fertilisation stage & growing on stages is the worst as you wait for calls it's horrible

Hi @Qwom! Welcome!

@sausage1990 100% I would have been lost with my friend who went through what I went through a few wks b4. She had a dark worse experience that me which I only learned after mine. She just thought that was the norm. But she was glad I didn't have the same experience.
Plus DH telling. Few at work, theres a few that went through it too. Something men dont talk about. But 100% should be spoken about more freely.

@Vil10 I love how you casually throw in the vag ball question at the end 🤣 @lucyrp was using balls up there the other day but not sure they were remote controlled 🤣

Aw thanks @Minster2012 but opks have been no use most months and irregular cycles, very light periods....doesn't look great! I have a follow up with the doctor next week as she wasn't available today but I'm just trying to get my mind around what next. I think if she isn't going to prescribe something to help with ovulation then I will stop actively ttc because if its going to take a while then I just can't keep giving it this much headspace. I'm sure it will happen, I'm staying positive but don't want it to rule our lives in the meantime.

Yeah I'm with @SarahTTC2020 there I was like reading away ...."by the way does anyone have remote controlled VAG balls?" 😳oooooooo, I couldn't though as y'know, cavernous fanny and all they would slide out & roll weirdly around the bed 🤪

@Katao can you not push for clomid? What does the doctor say?

@Minster2012 she was talking about prescribing something else, can't remember the name, but wanted to wait until the blood results. I only spoke to the nurse today, doctor will ring me next week.