it took us 6 years ttc with ds, had awful pg with bleeding, cramps, discharge, pre-eclampsia and an ec/s. afterwards i was in and out of hospital for 3 months and have had 3 consecutive mc's at between 5-9 weeks. with ds they found group b strep in my uterus and now docs are doing tests. i had my first lot of high swabs today and bloods next week. but it feels like i've given up and admitted failure. am i weird?