Just when I thought life couldn't throw any more shit my way my 2 year old is currently undergoing tests and I am petrified. Hes had a swolen lymph node in his neck for over a year I've been to the drs about 8 times and always been shrugged off and told because he is small its just more visible.. went again last week as it has gotten bigger, when they sent him for urgent bloods which have detected AKI I've stupidly googled swolen lymph node and AKI and it all points to cancer. Hes not been right for about 6 months, back to back constant illnesses, he's never settled, is really clingy and his appetite is tiny. He's having more bloods tomorrow and then they want his lymph node scanning. I am genuinely petrified I can't eat or sleep just feel sick. Just wanting a hand hold please :( I nearly lost him at 8 weeks when he got severe covid and his heart was at 180bpm. My dd has had sepsis twice. I've had 4 miscarriages and lost my dad, dog and grandad in the last 6 years. I cannot cope with anymore sadness or pain. I just wanted healthy happy kids..