My 15 yo has been on waiting list for autism assessment for 2 years (finally due Sept) and she's been self harming. Quite badly. She said she's thought a few times about suicide and we've been drs etc and she seems alright at the moment but school is a big issue for her I'm I'm worried about her restarting.
My 18 year old came to me last night shaking and asked me about mine and his fathers antidepressants and told me that the reason he didn't do that well in college finals is because he planned to commit suicide after college so didn't see the point.
I am taking him to the Dr's first thing tomorrow and we had a really long talk.
I have a 20 Yr old who is out of work and seems quite depressed too and a 13yo who seems OK but you just don't know do you.
I have ADHD and depression, their dad is bipolar.
We had kids young before we were diagnosed and I feel like we've just made children that have awful mental health genetics.
Up until about 4 years ago I thought we had done a great job. Covid hit and everything turned to shit
I feel like I'm spiralling and for years I've been terrified of losing one of them and now I feel like it's just a matter of time
How the fuck do I keep them all safe
I don't know what to do anymore
How can we all live like this.