My father died about three months ago. I loved him very much, and he was a loving father (albeit he wasn't perfect and didn't get everything right). With the rest of my siblings I nursed him to the end, it was emotionally draining and hard work physically, but I don't regret it and near the end he told me how much he loved me and how much he appreciated me. So in that respect, I have 'closure'.
But...I have barely cried at all. I haven't dissolved into tears if anyone mentions him, or if I see a photo, I went back to work very quickly, and I just feel fairly 'normal'.
But...I don't know if this means that I'm coping really well, or if I'm burying my head in the sand and coping really badly.
Does that make sense to anyone?