Just that, it's devastating. He may also have stomach cancer, we are just waiting for the results of a biopsy to confirm exactly what he has before they start him on chemotherapy. They have told us that it may slow the growth or even shrink the tumour(s) but won't get rid of it. He is 71 and lives on his own, I live 90 miles away and took him to A&E last week as he was in so much pain when I visited. He'd previously had an x-ray and CT scan for stomach pain but hadn't been given the results or any pain relief.
I haven't really cried yet as I am thinking of the practicalities of getting him to appointments, my brother lives nearer but works long, late hours and doesn't drive. My sister and dad have been estranged for about 2 years and she is unsure how he will respond if she visits. My mum and stepdad have thankfully been helping with lifts.
I feel like it's going to come crashing down on me at some point.