I'm so glad you've found another source of support. We've been looking after a neighbour who lost his DW in Sept and I completely understand how hard it is after this length of time. I guess some people expect you to go back to normal but it's just not possible, is it? I mean, I still miss his DW so I dread to think how he feels.
I really admire you YG, every one of the posts I've seen from you since you lost him has been full of dignity, strength and concern for others. You deserve all the support and future happiness it's possible to have. xx