my dad died today

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Just that. He was working at Bacton gas plant (he & mum live in central Scotland) and just collapsed on Monday.
His colleague performed CPR for 35 minutes until the ambulance came.
His work flew mum down on Monday, I came on Tuesday (I live near aberdeen) and my brother came yesterday.
After he had a ct scan on Tuesday afternoon, it became apparent that he had suffered massive diffuse brain injury. This morning we took him off his ventilator, as he was never going to get better. In less than 10 minutes he was dead. He would have been 59 this year.
His kidneys, lungs & liver have all been donated. He is also donating corneas & skin.
He's been at Norfolk & Norwich university hospital CCU. the staff there have been amazing as have Dads work.
We are devastated.

Thank you if you got to the end - it's a long post.

I'm so sorry for your loss
So much of what you say really resonates with me. I lost my Dad nearly two years ago, also unexpectedly.
I too found myself calling him Daddy again in my head, yet I hadn't called him that for years in real life.
I also used to cry in the car a lot. For me I found that with young dc I tried to act normally with them and not cry as I knew it would upset them. But as soon as I was alone in the car, that's when it would all come out.
For me trying to carry on normally for the dc did help, and that was a comfort. Also I can see my dad in them at times and it's quite reassuring to see his genes passed on the next generation if that makes any sense?
Take care