Feeling GUILTY - FIL just died

[Quootiepie]

my DH just rung and his dad has just died... and because of me the last 2 years they have had a really bad relationship, and have barely talked, whereas before me they were very close. I am feeling so so so so so guilty riht now and really dont know what to do!!!

Oh Quootie....I am so sorry to read this thread.
You are in my thoughts.....

If it's any consolation...I have read what you wrote and I don't think it sounds like your fault at all.
Everyone is responsible for their own actions and any one of the family could have stopped it at anytime.

Like RR said...don't let anyone else put their guilt or grief on you....people often need to direct their grief and this comes out as anger, especially if someone has died young or unexpectedly.

Look after your DH and yourself.
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its so complex...do I go to the funeral? do I not go? do I send DS? Do I let MIL into DSs life now???

If you want to go to the funeral for DH then go.Not sure i would want to take a baby with me though.
Its down to mil what happens next.If she wants to get to know your ds then its on your terms.

then ill get stares... and the whispers "whats she doing here?" and if I dont go its "fancy not coming, heartless cow" "fancy not supporting her husband"... why when my life starts to sort itself out does something happen?

MIL was cruel too... arghhhhhh!

if I wear dark glasses people will think im there to look cool for a social event. I know FIL wouldnt want me there... he hated me

Ask DH if he wants you there with him and take it from there.

i guess so... but hes not as switched on as me to other peoples feelings/views....

I would just be supportive to your DH & try not to feel too guilty. Even if you appearing in your DHs life meant that he saw him less or got on less well it doesn't sound like you forced him to.

It's not your fault that your FIL didn't get on with you. It shouldn't have stopped him getting on with his son either. I'm sure many people dislike their children-in-law but many wouldn't lose a relationship with their own child for it. I guess what I'm trying to say is that even if you are partly to blame, there is also blame belonging to the other parties involved.

My OH didn't visit his dad as often before he died & that was in part because he wanted to spend lots of time with me & DD. He feels guilty now that he didn't make more effort. I know people who argued with people who died before they saw them again. It's natural to feel guilty - easy to think if only I did a bit more, gave a bit more time, tried harder to make it work etc.

Quootie...the only people you need to worry about is you and your DH.

Stuff what other people think or don't think.
It sounds as if you won't be able to win either way so just do whatever is best for the two of you.
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