Trinityrhinos Unspeakably Shit Stuff part two

[TrinityRhino]

Hi everyone
Thank you for so much help and such kind words x

Trinity, you won't remember me (long since namechanged, many times) but I was on your threads back in 2009 /10 and sent you some bits and pieces a few years back. I've only just found this thread and the previous one, and was just totally horrified and felt sick reading that you'd been through another terrible tragedy. The fates really aren't fair, are they? I am just gob smacked, and ... Well, lost for words really.

I can't tell you how sorry I am for your loss. Cliff sounds amazing and you really are doing astonishingly, amazingly well just to be putting one foot in front of the other, let alone retaining a sense of humour, sober, while coping with rivers of snot. This thread has reduced me to tears, and I wish I could send you something more useful and tangible than a virtual hug (albeit a MASSIVE one) and loads and loads of love.

hahahaha at Horses book 'The Happy Hooker'

Trinity - another reminder for you, I couldn't say it better myself
Trin - physically, you have no 'adult' there, but you have your girls, and YOU HAVE US.

There is at least one of us there with you single every minute, of every single hour, of single every day.

You are not alone. You are not, I promise you.

I know this thread is coming to the end which may feel wrong, so put it on you watch list so you can back to it when you want to if you think it will help.

Gather up the words you want to take with you, the strength that Cliff gave you is staying with you, it will come to the next thread too, in your heart so that's sorted...

Take what you need and turn the page. That's all you have to do tonight, we'll all move over with you darling lady, we'll all follow your lead.

YOU didn't upset DD, the situation did, her emotions did, her grief did, the fact that she'd been with you and worked hard to get those damn diamonds did.

NOT YOU.

I'll see you on the other thread lovely. One Post At A Time.

I wish that I had one of those Star Trek transporter type thingymebobs and could whizz up there to be with you tonight, just to sit, hold you if you wanted me to, feed you with cake, chocolate, cake, cheese, well, maybe that would be for me

Listen to stories of Cliff, the daft things he did, farting and blaming it on Lolly to make the girls giggle? The way he'd chase them until they got hiccups?

One of his 'tricks'? Stories of his hat, The Hat. Stories of days out, nights in, stories of you sat up all night talking about life, love and laundry.

I'm saying goodnight to you all now lovely, you and your beautiful girls.

See you on the new thread in the morning.

Love to you all. That and cake

Mouse xx

hi trinity - name changed again. (((((((((((((((((huge hugs))))))))))))))))))

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and what lovely pictures, the last one

for your rl friends for being there physically when many of us can't but want to be there for you xxx

I'm sure I recognise fransmom.is that an old name of yours?
thanks everyone

I feel like I'm watching someone else
then I realise it's me

Evening Trin - just off to pop the wee little fish to bed, Nemo, and then I'll be back. Big hugs sweetheart. It will feel surreal, alien, wrong, of so fucking wrong.

Again.

Be back in a bit sweets xx

Fransmom - thank you for re-posing that, I thought I'd gone even more bonkers for a mo xx

'oh' so ...

Typos queen, that should so be my name!

Trin - have you sorted the charger out for your Mac? You can get them quite cheaply on eBay. Or maybe if a very kind MNer has one they don't need/want? :)

If you can get enough charge out of it, could you back the photo's up on a memory stick? You could do with doing that really lovely.

What do you have planned for the weekend? Is Cliff's Ex coming over? His DC's? Bless them all for caring about you and the girls. Sorry you are still snotty, I do think this emotional stress presenting itself as a physical release if that makes sense?

When my dad stops working, (in his 60's and still refusing to retire!) for the summer, he has two weeks off and is always ill. Always. It's like his body relaxes so much that all of the pent up 'everything' has been released and he just lets it out.......

I think you need to rest as best you can, you have another very big emotionally draining time coming up sweetheart.......... do you have any multivitamins you can take?

The girls are doing great, you need to remember about you, remember that strength, it's still there sweetheart. It's within you. Find it, reach for it, hold it when you find it. It's glowing, like Cliff did with you, he shone.

You shine, he's given you all that you need to get through tonight. Just tonight..... talk to us if you want, about him. I'd love to know more about your gentle giant and his red hat, walking LollyPup.....

You're amazing Trin, you really are. xxxx

I'm a numpty. I thought mouse had name changed to fransmom
lasagne was yummy.
my lovely neighbour sat whilst the girls were in bed and we popped up to purples to get out of the house for an hour

Trinity, it's been a long day here (no doubt not as long as yours), so I am just checking in say good night.
I hope your cold buggers off and leaves you in piece.
Your still a-standing - that's an achievement in itself.
Wishing you a night with resting kids and clear nasal passages.
Much love x.

Oh feck, you're, sorry.
Must go to bed.

I am sat sitting here ( in the Gaelic idiom ) and wanted to tell you how amazinfg you are.
Bless you, and may the carbs in the lasagne help you to sleep tonight and rise refreshed to fight another day.
Remember... one foot in front of another bloody foot !!

wtf amazinfg ?? I meant amazing !!

Trin are the photos on a mac and so on icloud?
If so chances are they are backed up on that?
Not sure how technical the mac is, but thought I would put it out there.

You won't recognise my current name but I'm so dreadfully sorry. We are all here for you x

Trin, it's ok, I thought mouseface had namechanged to Fransmom as well and I have no excuse (except maybe the 7mo who is currently trying to bounce his way out of his recliner!)

I completely agree - back up your photos asap, more than once if possible. Cloud drive - would you know if you have them on there? Hope so.

I had to send my laptop away to be opened in a clean room and the hard drive physically copied because it broke so badly - I got all of my stuff back, including all my photos, although about 5 of them were badly distorted. But it costs an arm and a leg to do that, so since then, I've always backed up my photos and docs onto an external hard drive. I should do it more often than I do (once a month would be good, at least) but I recently updated it so I'm ok for now.

External hard drives might seem expensive, but they're a sight cheaper than having to have your photos extracted from a buggered device. :(

Hope your macbook is ok and just needs a new charger. :)

((((hugs)))) xx

Those last few techie posts may as well have been in Russian for all I know. Hope you can get those photos without too much hassle or £££s.

You continue to stun us all Trinity.
And here's hoping for a snot-free week end.
xxx

Good morning, Trinity and girls!

I forgot to say last night, I really understand what you ment upthread with being upset at the sun shining: it seems so wrong when your world has just been ripped asunder that the rest of the world just carries on as before. And maybe even has a nice day .
Much as a sunny day can be uplifting, the discrepancy between your inner landscape and what's outside can be harsh to take.
So, I am not sure what weather to hope for you for today... You'll have to take it as it comes (the weather), but I know you will carry on being as strong as you have been.

Does this make any sense? Gawd, I know what I mean - I've not had coffee yet...

dd2 and cliffs daughter made breakfast for everyone this morning
cold is still manky
its pissing down with rain
ive eaten bacon and eggs and taken my meds

Rain here too.

Good, you've had some 'fuel'.
Not so good about cold.
I wish I could bring you some chicken soup. Or my grandmother's hot onion juice, her home remedy for colds . No cold dared to stick around in the presence of hot onion juice...

Are you stocked up on Lemsips?

Good morning.
Those girls sound like gems.
Sorry about the nose.
I'm going to MN meet up at lunchtime!

Afternoon lovely Trin

Yay for eating, meds work better with food.

Who's with you this weekend? I'm hoping that your cooker is in and working if you've had eggs and bacon or on it's way soon? :)

Do you need anything? Batteries for the xbox controllers? Any basics? Bread, more milk, teabags/coffee, anything for school lunches if the girls are going back next week etc? Just say! xx

Have you managed to back up your pics yet, don't panic if not, we'll talk you through how to do it depending on the software you have on your Mac.

Sorry to fire all of those questions at you, I'm just checking in with you really. Don't forget to let Lolly out for a wee!! xx

hey mouse
they get free school meals so thats sorted
we have rechargable packs in dd1s controllers
lolky has had a walk and wees and food
its absolutely pissing down so we had a picnic in the old camper van in the garden
cliffs eldest daughter arrived in friday so Im not alone. shes here for a while
struggling today
feel very exhausted and just so so sad

Hey Trin. Dh has just set off to Scotland, but up the east coast, so he will drop in on his way back south on Tuesday. I have ordered him to give you a hug from me :)

looking forward it yoni