I'm sorry this is just going to be rubbish spewed out of my mind.
DD1 is having her birthday party today. She'll be 13 in a few days.
She's having a lovely day with her friends (I did shopping/sleepover last night/more sleepover tonight/they're in the kitchen baking).
but her twin died and I had to walk away because Ijust couldn't see past that there should be two of them in there making cookies and laughing
13 years and it hurts tonight.
Sorry
rambiling igonre me please.
can't see for crying