I am sitting here ready to break down in tears and I feel like the worst parent in the world
I need help with my 4.7yr old dd. She used to be such a sweet kind and loving child, now I hardly recognise her anymore.
I stayed at home to raise her after she was born, she was our first child and I wanted to relish her every movement. As a consequence, she hardly spent any time with other people and never had a childminder or babysitter of any kind barr my 2 sisters who sat with her the very very odd night we went to the cinema or somewhere.
I then went on to have a son when dd was 3yrs old. After his birth I began a degree at Uni and left the baby and dd at a childminders. DD cried from the beginning and hated being there (ds loves it). So I removed dd from there as it wasn't fair to the other children the childminder looked after, she would cry and scream and beg for me to be called, and the childminder finally had enough of her disruptive behaviour.
Ds still goes there and I am very happy with that.
But dd is still a problem to me. I placed her in an out of schools club for an hour a day whilst I was at Uni and it went really well, she thrived there, learning a new language and a musical instrument. So when my Uni course finished for the summer I enroled her in the summer club that ran. She cries every morning going to it, she will be fine at home getting ready, and going in the car, but as soon as it is time to get out the car and go in, she tantrums, screams, and kicks. I have been leaving her like that and she is ok after 5 mins and is happy when I go to pick her up. She has been invited to a b'day party on Friday and I know she wiould love to go, right up until it comes to her staying and me going home, even though I will have explained it to her at home, and on the way and she will have agreed that she will be fine and she is safe and she understands that I am going home etc.. it all flies out the window as soon as I go to leave her anywhere
I don't know what I am going to do, she goes to school in Sept and I am scared this will continue every morning when I try to drop her off. I am at the end of my tether, I have requested help from my HV and she has offered me ways of dealing with it, and they have helped in every other aspect, like the tantrums at home have stopped as I ignore her, but I can't ignore her in the morning when she is upsetting the rest of the children in the club. also she never does anything I ask her to, she ignores me, or makes faces at me, she has NO respect whatsoever for me or her father, I feel like I am dealing with her alone as my husband goes to work at 7am and isn't home until almost 7pm as he has to travel far to work. I am exhausted, drained and an emotional wreck
Go easy on me girls, I know it's my parenting that has made her this way, but if it doesn't soon begin to get better I will need prozac or something to stop me from slumping