Do I quit my job?

[sodoffbeforemycupofcoff]

I started a role last year and was on 6 months probation. 8 months into the role my probation was extended due to instances that occurred between the two months my probation should have been reviewed (6-8 months).
I was told what I need to do to “get there” which I have taken on board and tried hard to do. since the meeting, I have had another (informal) meeting with my manager that I asked for to explain how I feel since the meeting everything seems to be going wrong. I come in each day expecting to be fired and I keep seeing emails with my name on that are “going wrong”. For context this role is extremely high pressure, I work a full day of customer service calls while trying to process sales orders that come through constantly and fast with every particular requirements that we must make sure the item has. It’s like working two full time jobs.
I broke down on my call and said I don’t know if it is my time to just say I quit and be done with it.
My manager did say since my probation meeting I am now meeting my other targets, but it is other things I now need to brush up on. He followed up by saying he didn’t want to see me go and believes I have all the potential to complete probation.
this doesn’t disregard my anxiety and constant fear. I have children who rely on me. I have been looking elsewhere but nothing is coming up that would fit my needs. I am a single mother with high outgoings. I just don’t know what to do for the best.

No, so you have the impulsive adhd or the inattentive adhd. I have both. It’s a nightmare. I’m hyper active and thrive in chaos and also very inattentive so I don’t seem to notice much details.

It is is the name: Attention Deficit, Hyperactivity, Disorder.
So doesn't everyone with ADHD have both? (Note the hyperactivity can be internalised into an overactive mind, not necessarily an overactive body).

Anyway, good luck with the job search.

I thought the same but when they diagnosed me with combined type I asked what it meant and was given this explanation. It might be called both cause it can be both. Thank you

Keep looking for a job, it’s too stressful walking around on eggshells like this. Everyone makes mistakes and this uncertainty isn’t good for your mental health.

I’m debating sacking this job off and starting from scratch building up clients doing facials that I am qualified in.

Have you moved around jobs quite a bit @sodoffbeforemycupofcoff ?

I wouldn’t have said so. Not really. I was with a company for almost 6 years then I was made redundant, started with another and was made redundant and then came here

Is it critical that you don’t have a break between jobs? Do you have a partner or dependents?

I have two young children. 5 and 2 if I had no work I’d have more time with my little one (2) but I would need an income as I am a single parent. I am qualified in facials and am debating to kick start my own career, for myself.

A lot of hoops to jump through - would you work from home? Only offer facials? Do you have any existing clients? When you say trained in facials.. with what brand? You’d have to get equipment, insurance, have a spare bedroom.

Update: I asked my employer to do an occupational health assessment on me. We had a big chat and I said how I felt I need further support that what the normal person would, with having ADHD. He agreed and I am having my meeting next week. I feel in a better place.

Good. This is what I was about to suggest. With the right support in place, you stand a much better chance of succeeding.