My inverted nipple is ruining my life

[Jazminlovestheflowers]

I have one inverted nipple and it really looks extremely ugly. It's the worst grade you can get plus if it is forced out ... with alot of force ... its not even a nipple it's kind of split in two. It's so so horrible.
I'm even embarrassed to be typing this.
I havent shown anyone my breasts without a bra on in about 16 years and that was my ex husband.
I have recently started dating a man and things got physical after a few wines the other night and I really fancy him, felt really comfortable around him.
We started getting undressed and I was telling myself you can do this... he took my bra off and I could visibly see a look of horror on his face. Anyway we slept together with me feeling so awkward and embarrassed, it was like I wanted the ground to swallow me up.
Anyway afterwards he seemed really wierd, i left , we made small talk , he was polite, weve messaged a little bit since , but hes not the same ..... it's my nipple isnt it?
I have looked into getting inverted nipple correction but I just cant afford to spend that money on myself atm as a single parent things are really tight money wise atm.
I have looked at getting it pierced but after messaging a local piercing place they said because it's so inverted and split... they won't do it 😭 I hate it so much I can barely look at myself in the mirror.
AIBU to just accept I'm never ever going to be able to sleep with anyone ever again?!

I used to have one and was very self conscious about it (I’d hide it with my long hair) so totally understand where you’re coming from. When I was breastfeeding I would force it out and after three months of bf it stayed permanently out (over twenty years now). It makes me think one of those special suction things could do the same job? Maybe see your GP first to make sure it’s ok to use, bearing in mind the split.

Not on him, he is human. Perhaps you should tell him upfront.
Ask any balding guy about removing his hat and the look girlfriends give.

Mine were inverted and breastfeeding made them go fully pointy, I preferred it before! But maybe a pump or the little suction thing by lanisol might work to train them out. I think I read somewhere it's like a ligament or something that breaks with breastfeeding.