My sister and her very long term DP have split up, well they split up months ago but she decided to hand her notice in at work and move to the other side of the country to live with a friend and start afresh. Her DP will keep on their house.
Anyway, basically our mum bought Dsis a coach on credit when she moved in with her DP, it was very expensive and DM is still paying it off.
DM text me and told me that DSis didn't want to take the coach with her, so did I want it?
My coach is very old, worn out and with 4 cats and a child with autism and disabilties, a bit scratched and stained, so I would love it.
However, I said no because I did not want to leave my sisters DP, who I've known for years and hasn't done anything wrong, without a coach.
DM said she had offered for him to take over the payments and he refused and she wasn't paying for a coach that neither of us had.
So my sister said what if we had a swap and gave him my old coach and swapped it round? I said yes if that's what her DP wanted and he agreed.
BUT....
I just feel horrible taking his spotless, new coach, which has never had a child or animal on it, and handing him my rubbish, old, cat bed in return.
I can't even wash or Hoover it as I've had a miscarriage/ ectopic miscarriage this week and I can't even move without feeling like someone is stabbing me right through my womb and slowly twisting the sword. 
I usually Hoover and use the carpet cleaner on it weekly.
Is this horrible?