Ex cocaine addict here

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Boring Friday night for me, ask me anything!

I'm also mother to a one year old.

How often did you use?

It was £70 a gram when I used to use it, how much were you paying?

How often did you use?

Every day if I could get my hands on it. Morning and evening, less so during the day. But sometimes all day.

It was £70 a gram when I used to use it, how much were you paying?

£80 a gram, less if I bought more. I was friends with and dating drug dealers on and off so sometimes I'd pay very little and sometimes nothing.

I meant to put your questions in bold. Sorry.

Did you give any thought to how and by whom it was brought into the country, or feel any guilt about funding cartels?

What are the reasons you became addicted do you think? As in many people use but don't get addicted. Can you trace your addiction back to a root cause?

I've no question to ask OP, but I just wanted to say a huge well done on no longer being an addict.

Did you give any thought to how and by whom it was brought into the country, or feel any guilt about funding cartels?

Not once did this cross my mind.

What are the reasons you became addicted do you think? As in many people use but don't get addicted. Can you trace your addiction back to a root cause?

I really liked it. Looking back, I was in a bad place. I liked being that girl, which soon faded. I'm not sure what the trigger point was.

I've no question to ask OP, but I just wanted to say a huge well done on no longer being an addict.

Thank you, so much.

I've never taken recreational drugs

What does it feel like to take cocaine?

Did you start taking with friends/partner? Did they stop before you did?

Did you realise you were an addict at the time or did you think you had your habit under control?

What's the worse thing you said/did to get hold of the drug?

(Well done for stopping )

Did you use other drugs eg hash and work your way up to cocaine?
What age were you when you first started using drugs?
How did you fund your habit?

What does it feel like to take cocaine?

For me, I would feel very awake and 'alive'. It was very hard to sit still and I'd need to be doing something. It's so hard to explain, just a general feeling of euphoria but without the other unpleasant side effects that come with many other drugs. Sometimes when I had done a lot, I'd feel invincible and try and cause myself pain because I would panic that I felt so numb.

Did you start taking with friends/partner? Did they stop before you did?

I started with friends and then I had two boyfriends that used. I stopped before they did, they all still use but not as heavily.

I take coke a couple of times a year socially and it always strikes me how strong the urge for 'more' is when a line wears off after an hour or so. Very addictive drug. X

*Did you realise you were an addict at the time or did you think you had your habit under control?

What's the worse thing you said/did to get hold of the drug?*

Towards the end I knew, but for a while I didn't even think about whether I was an addict or not. I didn't care about stopping or even think about stopping until towards the end of the addiction. It was so normalised within my circle that it didn't even seem wrong.

I would flirt with dealers (they're called shotters around where I'm from) knowing there's a high chance they'd give me drugs. Nothing more than that. I had a friend that would frequently sleep with one particular drug dealer when we were out of money so that we could get it for free. I would lie to my parents about why I needed money, but I'd spend it on drugs.

Thank you.

Did you use other drugs eg hash and work your way up to cocaine?
What age were you when you first started using drugs?
How did you fund your habit?

I started smoking weed at 14 or 15 and swore I would never do anything else. The next drug I tried was MDMA, just before I turned 17. I first tried cocaine at 17 too.

I had a lot of savings and my grandmother sent me a monthly allowance, as well as my dad. I walked dogs on and off for extra money sometimes, but a lot of the time it was free or very discounted. My two friends and I would share with each other as well.

I take coke a couple of times a year socially and it always strikes me how strong the urge for 'more' is when a line wears off after an hour or so. Very addictive drug.

The urge is insane. There's been times where I'd been taking it alone in my bedroom and then crying when I had ran out because the urge was so strong. I commend you for having the self control to only do it a couple of times a year!

❤️❤️❤️ I can see how it happens to people xxx

Thanks for answering.

Do you think there was anything in you life that influenced your drug use?

Could you give any advice to parents of teens on how to veer them away from drugs or do you think it depends on the individual.

No questions, but wanted to say well done for stopping. "Well done" isn't really strong enough for what I mean, but I hope you're very proud of yourself, you should be. Awful, life ruining drug.