I do not know what to do. Work has always been a bit stressful but lately it has been a lot worse. Now even on good days I seem to be stuck in a constant fight or flight mode, pressure in chest, struggling to breathe. I'm questioning every decision I take, worried it will be a disaster and I'll get fired. The company has a history of getting rid of people on a whim.
I've not slept in weeks. It takes me ages to fall asleep, I take sleep gummies and listen to sleep hypnosis then if one of the DC wakes me up I have to start all over again and it can take hours in the middle of the night. The sleep I get inbetween is really light, the sleep score on my smart watch every morning is awful.
This morning at 4.30 I logged in as I had to check I hadn't missed anything on a project.
It can't carry on like this, but I can't change jobs right now for a variety of reasons and can't go without a salary. My only option is to carry on but just not let the stress affect me. How do I do that?