I have been given an internal interview at work next week and am struggling to articulate a feeling I am having about only just starting a part of development in my 40s.
Out of uni I did a totally different job for a decade. Then I had kids, took redundancy, and ultimately went self employed doing virtual EA work. It went well and a client offered me an employee admin position, and I took it.
it means I’m in my early 40s in a basic admin role and I’m applying for a team leader position. I don’t know why but I’m starting to feel anxious. The people I’m interviewing against are much younger, obvious choices to develop. But equally I don’t want to stay just doing admin.
what if I don’t get it, do I just stay doing admin for the next 25 years. I never thought I’d be employed again after my last experience, and can’t imagine working somewhere else.
im genuinely not concerned about the interview. But am feeling wary of a big change, which is not like me at all!!
if anyone has any insights or reassurance about only developing a career as you hit middle age I’d appreciate it.