I am currently on maternity leave and am due back to work at the beginning of May - I am taking 9 months off.
This is my second child, my first being 2 years old. When I returned to work after my first child my hours were full time but then dropped my hours to part time.
I have been very unhappy working where I am and was suffering from anxiety due to work, to the point where I burst into tears as soon as I walked through the door (I was signed off leading up to my maternity leave due to anxiety attacks). My work collegue who I job share with has said that things have gotten even worse since I have been gone, and has stated the firm does not like the fact the we are working part time as it doesn't work for the business. I am currently looking for a new job and I know working part time would be best for me but I've hardly come across any part time jobs but have come across plenty full time jobs.
When working full time childcare costs where extremely high, nearly £1000 a month. So with 2 kids that would be nearly £1900/£2000. Obviously working part time, my childcare costs have dropped down dramatically and my son is currently getting '15 free hours childcare' as my salary is below the threshold (If I work full time this will stop as he would not be entitled to it until he's 3). My partner is also working but does not earn much at all so I know he would also struggle with the cost of childcare as he did before.
I am wondering whether anyone has gone back to work full time and has been better off? Or shall I just stick at my job and continue to look for part time work (The thought of it makes me want to cry
)? I just feel so confused, any advice would be greatly appreciated x