im serious actually. where has my brain gone? since ive been out of work i just seem to be losing it. there was a time when i could write a reasonably intelligent and well worded post or letter. its deteriorating rapidly. i sit for hours trying to word things. when im on the phone to friends i um and ah and stutter and cant seem to get out what i really want to say. i feel like my head is a big empty space. will this all come back when i start working again or am i now doomed to be an idiot forever? is it just me?