I'm not sure how this will turn out. I'm sorry, I know that this will seem silly to a lot of people. Please bear with me as I've not told anyone about this. I've even gone years without thinking about it. Lately, though I can't seem to get this out of my head.
I split up with my XP about 4 years ago. We were together 6 years. The best thing that I can say about him was that he was a bully - and I know how pathetic that sounds.
I'm posting this in the Feminism section because I've seen threads on other sections get nasty and I don't want that to happen to me.
I remember what happened quite vividly. I was woken up on two occasions by my XP having sex with me. What woke me up was the pain of him entering me.
He was on top and a lot bigger than me. I didn't know what to do and just lay there while it happened. He finished and went back to sleep.
The two occasions that it happened were within days/weeks of each other.
After the second occasion I tried to talk to him about it the next morning. He said that he "must've" been asleep. I told him that he'd seemed awake to me. He told me that he'd woken up "halfway through" and just carried on. I said it had to stop and it never happened again.
I don't really expect anything from this. I just needed to tell someone about it. I can't tell anyone in real life about this.