Breast biopsy, looking for reassurance

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I’m trying to not Google, but have searched old threads on here and it’s really scared me.

Ive been getting pain for months but ignored as hormonal, a lump has very quickly appeared, it’s big. I went to the breast clinic yesterday, GP and consultant initially very blase, likely the fibroid-thing etc etc. Then comes the ultrasound, not that, not a cyst, “50/50 cancer” were her exact words. Mammograms. Back to the consultant, “very concerning”, “I don’t want to tell you have cancer and you go home crying for 3 weeks, so we’ll see you when we have the results”. Not the best bedside manner from either side I have to say.

Lymph nodes look healthy. I’m regretting not asking more questions, I’ve no idea about size, the RAD scale thing, I was just shocked at how the appointment changed so quickly.

It’s just the way the consultant spoke to me, it really felt like he thought I had cancer, I’m not a sensitive person, I don’t flap, I’m not exaggerating, it really was just how it felt the way he was talking to me.

38, 2 children, husband away with work. Please someone keep me company.

Handhold. Try not to worry though it is hard. If it is cancer, at least they've found it and you can start on a treatment path. It's really positive that the lymph nodes are healthy. Hopefully you'll get the results sooner than 3 weeks.

I got diagnosed with a spot after routine breast screening in June, and then a biopsy in July. I was the opposite as really didn't think it would be positive but when I look back, I can see the signs from things the consultant said. I was about to go on holiday and they were very keen to do the biopsy before I went. I got the results when I got back.

Hope you're not too sore after the biopsy today. Try and rest if you can. It's tough your husband being away, hopefully he'll be back soon and be able to look after you, help with the kids.

Thank you. I appreciate the response. I hope your treatment is going well. I’m sorry you’re going through it. I just don’t know how to switch my brain to anything else! Can’t wait to go to sleep tonight.

It's really hard not to focus. Crap TV has been my solution. I'm normally a massive reader but have been finding it harder to distract myself with books.

There are lots of support lines like Macmillans and Maggie's if you want to talk to someone too. It may still be nothing

I'd echo the advice to give a call to Macmillan or Maggie's. They've been very helpful to me when we were waiting for a diagnosis for my DH. It's so difficult not to think the worst.

Thanks both, I’m fighting the urge to call the hospital and ask the questions I wished I’d known to ask around specific medical grading of what they’re seeing, size of lump etc! But I know it won’t change anything, I’m just normally such an inquisitive person and Tuesday I was just numb with shock with how the apt turned.

You’ll get your grading when you go back for your results. I believe the lesion needs to be stained and the cells examined under a microscope to grade it.
I hope you are okay. The waiting is very difficult. Take someone with you for your results.