So I’ll start by saying I have major health anxiety and I feel like I have spent my whole life obsessing about cancer .
Im 38 . My last smear ( 3 years ago ) showed hpv and CIN2 . My one previous to that , a year before , was hpv positive no cell changes. I had a biopsy- wasn’t cancer , confirmed CIN2 , then I had LLETZ. 6 months later I had a “test of cure” which showed the hpv was gone .
Im due my smear in sep . The past probably 18 months , I have bled when I ovulate ( i estimate the ovulation , don’t take tests but always lines up and i can feel the ovary twinges, it lasts 2 days , it’s very light pink more of a tinge really , sometimes it kind of goes from a tinge to more red then back to a tinge and fades out - it’s never enough for a pad ) that’s literally the only time I ever spot or bleed between periods and once it started and I realised that it correlated with ovulation , I didn’t worry. It’s most months , not every , but most . I thought it had just started these 18 months ago but upon investigating ( searching my old WhatsApp chats because I tell my friends everything ) I realised it had happened previously around 2019 - so before my smears etc so I’ve been looked at since that as my whole CIN2 issue was after that. But that was few and far between.
So , since this started about 18 months ago - I have tracked more , so I’m more aware - I have noticed my periods changing slightly in terms of my cycle getting just a little longer . I don’t know if this really happened before as I never used to really track them .
But this month has got me worried . I had my period about 3 weeks after my last ovulation bleed - so longer than usual . Then my period came and went . I then had the slight ovulation bleed on day 8-10. So that’s early . It lasted the 2 days and I was ok with that . Then it stopped for a day and it was just normal , then tonight I just felt a slight gush - it felt like watery discharge . I went to the toilet and it’s ever so slightly tinted again - not discharge - just like watery in my underwear , not much , then when I wiped there was the very slight tinge of like a pink / peach on the paper. After than I went the toilet again ( I obsessively went to check ) And there were a few like pin prick dots of blood - very tiny and only a few , like 2/3 .
This probably wasn’t the best thing to do but I then tried to feel my cervix - it was difficult to reach, soft and open , like it should be during ovulation - and there was a little bit of blood mixed with fluid .
The signs point to ovulation - but it shouldnt be this long! This is the time I would have estimated my ovulation at but I had the bleed and the symptoms like 4 days ago .
I just need some reassurance or advice as I’m really worried . I never bleed between periods , except ovulation , but that’s always the same time and this time it feels a few days off and like it should only be 2 days so it’s longer plus there was the whole day break with nothing .
It really is very light and mild . I don’t have long periods , they can be heavy at the peak but nothing different to how it’s always been I never bleed after sex. I did have sex last night but nothing after and nothing until this evening . I never spot outside of 2 days around ovulation . I now feel like I have some mild pain but I don’t know if it’s me hyper fixating!
Has anyone experienced this ? Could it be age ? If I had a normal smear 2 and a half years ago with no hpv could cancer have developed already ? My cells were removed 6 months before the last smear - does that mean they were definitely all gone ??
Im really scared and my stress levels are sky high . I feel scared every time I go to the toilet and I’m going constantly to check 😩