DD aged 11 already had complex SEMH and communication needs and in a specialist provision. August while on holiday was diagnosed as a T1 Diabetic in a very traumatic way.
She has absolutely spiralled since diagnosis and returning home and to school.
Her behaviour is horrific, extreme prolonged periods of dysregulation where she will scream, hurl verbal abuse and attack me and her brother. School are getting the prolonged meltdowns and verbal abuse and screaming and throwing things. I am on my own with her but school are really highly trained and able to tag team staff. I really cant fault the school, they have been incredible.
Ive asked for a carers assessment and a social worker is coming Monday, I have no idea what to ask for.
Unfortuantly Thursday she had a MASSIVE meltdown leaving school. 2.5 hours of me, the entire SLT and several school staff members literally just trying to keep her safe. She was hitting, throwing rocks, on my car roof, hurling abuse. In the middle of it all she had a hypo and refused treatment. This all spiralled from a brief moment of panic and a trauma response.
Friday morning we spent 1hr45m coaxing her into school. She did go and she did have a great afternoon.
She is telling me she wants to be dead. She truly hates me for taking her to hospital where she ended up in ICU.
I hate myself so I see why she hates me. I dont know how I am supposed to have her at home. I am so low i am struggling to see a solution. I dont want to do it anymore and I cant keep failing my children.
No real point to this, I just need to say it!