We had to have our precious boy put to sleep very recently. I am absolutely devastated.
He wasn’t really young, but he also wasn’t old and we feel we should’ve had at least another couple of years with him. I feel robbed of the extra time we should’ve had.
I don’t want to give too many details but the last few weeks with him were heartbreaking and we knew it was time. He was put to sleep at home, which was very peaceful and went as well as it could, but I still found it quite distressing and keep thinking about them carrying him out of the house in a bed that wasn’t his own.
I can’t stop crying. I miss him so much, and absolutely everything reminds me of him, he was such an enormous part of our lives. We recently donated some of his belongings to a local charity and I was so upset because it felt like we were erasing him from our home.
It sounds so silly but I’m not sure how to go on. I know I just need time, but my god I hope it gets easier soon.