will this be the beginning of the end

[furbaby]

Our darling staffy who we have had since a pup has been slowing down , he is now 12 .
He seems hungry all the time after a tummy bug about a month ago .
He has lost 4 kilos in weight :(
Took him to very nice vet today who said he was anemic ..... she has done full bloods and we have an appointment tomorrow night to talk about the results .
Vet is saying he could be bleeding internally from a cancer :(
Don, t think life will ever be the same if we lost him... just can, t believe it as we have a 16 year old staffy as well and always thought she would go before him .
He is our life , he is our son and brother for our dd .
We are both gutted and worried about what tomorrow will bring , vet is talking scans after blood test but how far do you go to save your pet without it being about you and how far do you go so they don, t suffer . The whole family love this dog soooo much .

Horrid for you, furbaby. Some people trivialise a death in the family. Well done both of you for taking leave. Don't beat yourself up! Either of you.

I downloaded dogs trust info ... thank you it helped as it described just how I am feeling now . I realise that with time I can some how learn to live without him .
Its daft as we have had weeks to prepare ourselves for loosing him but he was so special and don, t think either of us realised how hard it would be .
Boss is an arse , do hope he does, nt call us in office when we go back :(

Vets rang today to say darling boys ashes are with them ....... more upset :( don, t know if I am strong enough to face picking up our angel in a box .
Not looking forward to bill either , vets out to house on sunday and cremation costs don, t think we will get much change out of £500 .
But hey he was worth it :)