Desperately worried

[theluckiest]

I posted here a few weeks ago about my beautiful Cavalier KC Spaniel who sadly passed away. She had several tumours and had to be PTS.

DH has just taken our other KC to the emergency vet. He was woken by our boy moaning and thrashing about. I didn't hear this so DH woke me.
Mr C (our boy) seemed to be struggling to breathe & his eyes were unfocussed. He has been to vets this week with suspected kennel cough and on anti-bs for an infection. Seemed to be perking up today but slow on his walk tonight. He has a moderate heart murmur but vet seemed to think this was ok.

Just didn't know what to do. Stroked his head & ears while DH desperately tried to call a 24 hr vet. If I stopped stroking him he moaned. I am so worried and so so sad. It's 2.30am and DH has just taken him. I am waiting for a terrible phone call.

It's heartbreaking. Mr C is only 6 yrs old. I adore him.

Don;t know why I'm posting really other than to tell someone who understands. I love that dog and my heart is breaking.

Can't bear to think you lost both your beautiful babies so close together

We still have our little terrier Arthur and he has been comforting me

But also dreading the ashes part, can't even think about going to Stans favourite park at the moment, had to take different route with Arthur

Thinking of you x

lucky when we lost our first 'family' GSD a few years ago we brought him home with the thought to scattering his ashes at his favourite beach in Scotland. It is now 3 years later and we still havent done it. He is in a beautiful rosewood box in our bedroom. I just am not ready to let him go yet.

I know he isnt really here and yes we have other dogs, but this one was special in every way. The most beautiful, gentlest dog ever and my DS now nearly 13 and him were inseparable. They were brought up together as baby and puppy and it is like the loss of another child (for me at least)

Take your time to heal from this.

Sending you lots of healing thoughts. x