Quick question re The Paedophile Next Door *trigger*

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I was thinking of watching the documentary on 4od. I was abused myself and so would like to understand more about the way a paedophile's mind works (god knows why, just curious I guess). I just wondered if anyone who has watched it and had a similar experience found it upsetting? Did you find it useful in any way? I've been thinking about watching it for over a month but am being a bit of a chicken. I'm really sorry if this has upset anyone x

Oh, even though I have nc'd fairly recently you can see from my recent posting history that I'm a regular. Not a hairy-handed bridge dweller

I remember talking to my counsellor about this curiosity and I came to the conclusion that I will never understand and I don't want to. More important to learn how your own mind works rather than someone else's imo.