I'm sure this has been posted many times, but how as a mum do you live your life while your teenager is so deeply unhappy 😞 he is currently on antidepressants (3 months almost) and has regular appointments with CAMHS, he is definitely better than he was a year ago but I feel like I live my life holding my breath! Everytime his name pops up on my phone my heart rate spikes in case he is ringing to vent about how much he hates his life (I'm glad he does vent but it's not easy being his person) every blip in his day to day activities I am waiting on it tipping him over the edge etc I hide all this from him so all he sees is a fully supportive mum that can handle anything he brings her way, but behind the scenes I am worried sick about him, I feel guilty if I have a good day and he is suffering, I can't even imagine doing anything fun as I feel like I am ignoring his issues, I basically go to work and sit in the house with my phone in hand so I can talk him down or help him through whatever he may need help with, again he isn't aware of any of this, but I feel like I am stuck!! Sorry for such a long post, no one in real life seems to understand what I am experiencing