I'm wondering if anyone else is going through the same as me. My son is 19yrs old and is at Uni. He is a happy, well adjusted, popular adult and I am extremely proud of him. I am happy he is out in the world and enjoying his life. We talk regularly and I see him when we can. My problem is he mixed race and I see little boys that look just like him when he was little and I could burst into tears as I miss him being that age. I raised him alone so had the joy of being his only parent so we were very close. I was recently on holiday and saw a little boy and his mum playing on the beach and swimming in the sea. I was so jealous as I miss doing those things so much. I try my hardest to start a conversation just so I can join in and get a little closer. I know I come over as a head case but not. I would love to go back in time and do it all over again . It's not empty nest as I'm happy he is out in the world and I love my life and the freedom I have but it's when I see a child who looks like him I go to pieces inside. I dream he is little again and I love it but then I wake up and realise its not true .Has anyone been through this and what did they do to get over it?