Cold turkey- help me when I'm tempted

[rainbowdash17]

I'm about to go cold turkey from cocaine.
It's time to! Definitely
My weak points are when I'm tempted to buy some (usually evenings)

Can I message on here when I'm tempted for a pep talk on why I shouldn't & reassurance that it's ok?
I think it would really help me

Do you reckon we can do this?

Cleaning, hope you are working things out at work, at least your head is as clear as can be to deal with the fuck up.

Ilostit its so tricky isn't it, I hate that coke has stopped me from being able to fully enjoy all aspects of my life, however as you say the wedding is a few weeks away, you may feel much stronger than you do now. Especially if you have managed to stay clean. Didn't realise your husband was into it too, it really adds an added layer of complexity don't you think? It's great he is on the same page though and wanting to stay clean too. Don't think mine is quite there yet, he knows I have a problem but reckons he can knock it in the head whenever he decides to.......if only

Yes definitely, flat, if one of us slips up, we usually drag the other one down with us. I'm not going to pretend we haven't had some brilliant times on drugs in the past but it doesn't really work for either of us anymore. We've gone too far with it and now there are far too many negatives tied up with it.

cleaning said last night about not getting comedowns and being ok to function. That's exactly what I used to be like!
After a long time on and off it, that all changes and bites you on the arse, especially as your tolerance for it goes up really quickly so you feel like you need more and more of it to get the same high.

You could suggest to your dh that you both try 1 sober month just to sort of prove to yourselves you can? He might try that.

Just realised that I jumped the gun a bit saying try for a sober month, I know you're finding it hard. Maybe ask your dh if he'll try a clean weekend first.

Have the house to myself this afternoon so going to take a leaf out of cleanings book and clean like a mo'fo'

Stay strong

Thanks ilostit we used to have lots of fun on it too, when it was four times a year on really special occasions. We were in control of it then, not it of us. Really didn't see it creeping up on me like this, it's not fun anymore, I just feel enslaved to it now. Anyway going to stay positive, we will try for a sober weekend this weekend with my full proof plan!!!

It does creep up on you, it's a sneaky bugger.

Really intrigued about your water tight weekend plan.. hope it's not too drastic like you and your dh tying each other to a chair leg for the whole two days.

Let me know how it goes.

Yes, what is the plan flat! I'm intrigued!!

Heeee heee you will have to wait and see! Will let you know if I manage to pull it off. If not I may have to revert to the chair leg option (thanks ilostit) or have our dealer exterminated

Laughing about taking a hit out on your dealer

She's obviously going camping in the Outer Hebrides this weekend, Serial

Sorry to report that dh and I have caved. To be fair, I knew it'd be case of going down to once a week rather than stopping completely.

Can't even take a hit out on our dealer as we have more than one 🙈

Well I haven't actually touched anything yet but it's looking likely.

Oh Cleaning At least you're honest. I don't suppose having a shit day at work helped.
Do you want me to talk you out of it or is it DEFINITELY happening?

Ok cleaning you sound like you have gone beyond the point of return. If you have second thoughts and need support you know we are here.

You are not far off with the outer Hebrides Ilostit

Thanks ladies. Dh is bringing it about an hour. We did talk about it earlier but now im I'm not even that fussed. Just that it's been such a shit day that I'm thinking 'fuck it'.

I'll see how I feel when it gets here

OK, Cleaning Let's talk it out when you've got yourself straight again. There is a part of me that's feeling quite jealous of you at the moment which I'm sort of struggling with.

Try to get at least some rest tonight, it sounds quite full on at work so you want to feel alright tomorrow x

Cleaning you did a week - be proud. Just get back on it tomorrow.

Lost - I know what you mean about feeling jealous.

God yes Serial I think I turned green with envy for a minute there. Making a strong coffee and smoking a fag here as substitute.

Am also having a fag! God bless fags! Have gone mad and am having a lager too! God bless lager!

Well in the meantime I've deep cleaned the dishwasher with a treatment and hoovered again

To be honest £80 a week is easier to fathom than the £400/ £500 it once was so I'm desperately trying to find a silver lining.

I reckon I'll do one fat one and leave it at that. (Sorry to not help with the envy) Not going to pull an all nighter.

I don't mind a lager myself Serial Lager and fags are one of life's great combos, like Morcambe and Wise

Cleaning I understand. The psychological cravings are like nothing else.

We're here if you need help getting back on the crappy old wagon.

Cleaning, the words 'a fat one ' have got me smoking like a motherfucker!!

Sorry sorry sorry serial!!

I know this is all my own doing but if that fucking cunt had bloody read my briefing notes this morning I wouldn't be in quite such a state I'm sure

Been smoking non stop tonight too. Today is not my day

Tomorrow will be better cleaning. Cutting down from spending £400 a week to £80 is an AMAZING thing. So don't beat yourself up.

Thank you. I just feel so low. My best friend just got dumped by her fiance tonight as well. I'm considering a drink. I didn't start the day like this at ALL.

So sorry you had such a shit day cleaning, try to easy tonight if you can. We will be here for you tomorrow