I need some help!
After pregnancy, a c-section, a breast cancer diagnosis 16 weeks later, two surgeries, 8 x chemo and the last of 10 radiotherapy sessions tomorrow, I feel like a completely different person to the one I used to be. Before all of this happened I wore bright colours and prints, bold makeup, dyed my hair pink, loved unusual jewellery…not anymore. Part of it is wanting to hide, I think, but anyway, all my old clothes and shoes and accessories just made me feel really sad so I sold pretty much everything I owned on Vinted. All that’s left are jeans, my black leather jacket, a couple of All Saints t shirts I’ve had for years, SB Gary trousers, a pair of black DMs, white Vejas, and my running/cycling kit. I bought a few plain baggy jumpers on Vinted which have got me through treatment/winter but the weather is getting nicer and I’ve also got to try and pick up the pieces of my life, go back to work etc and I can’t do that if I have no clothes! I’m so down about my appearance, the only thing I really liked about myself was my hair and that fell out. It’ll be a long time before it is the length I will be happy with and wigs make me very anxious/too hot so I’m in scarves and hats at the moment. DH and my mum think that if I had some nice new clothes it would help 🤷♀️
I’m 37, 5’9, 10 stone, lopsided because I didn’t have much in the boob department anyway so when they were done removing what they needed to remove I’m pretty much flat, and I hate my tummy because that’s where all my weight goes. I wouldn’t want to wear anything fitted because I don’t have the shape for it anymore. I have a 1 year old and when I go back to work it’ll be predominantly WFH so I don’t need lots of very dressy stuff. I find myself drawn to plain stuff in shop windows now - no patterns or prints.
I just feel lost because I only really know brands that made the kind of clothes I used to like! Hoping for some suggestions 🙂