I don't know if it's me imagining it or my lack of confidence that's making me feel like this :-(
I am 34 and up until about 2 years ago I was quite pretty/attractive really and photographed well. I had my third child 17 months ago and since I've had him I'm about 2 stone heavier than I used to be. I'm only 5ft 4ish so it is noticeable.
I am now doing Slimming World and the weight is coming off albeit slowly, but I just feel so ugly. My face looks awful in photos now, really quite ugly. I almost feel that it looks masculine rather than pretty like it used to be. I think it must be because of the weight gain. My face just looks really "flabby" IYKWIM. Awful. I tried to take some photos of myself this morning on my phone to use as my profile picture on FB and the lighting was crap so I looked like a witch (have dark hair), and just so, so ugly.
Lots of larger people, I am thinking one of my friends in particular, still have beautiful faces. I know I'm in my 30s now but I'm only 34 and I just feel so ugly.
Is it just that being a bit larger than normal doesn't suit some faces (am a size 14 now, was 8-10 before)? Or have I gone through some change that has made me ugly? My mum is in her 60s and still has a very pretty face, I used to look like her.....
I don't know if it might be my lack of confidence making me feel this way too; I am currently having CBT for a variety of issues, including a very low self-esteem :-(