Erm..... I think I just quit smoking.

[CarbeDiem]

I'm 36 been smoking on and off (for the most part on) since I was 14.
Stopped long term during 3 pregnancies but always started again after.
Same goes for long hospital stays - always always re-start.

I'm asthmatic and believe it or not it doesn't make me react like chemicals or cats, obviously it's certainly not helping my lungs/asthma at all and that's always shocked me. I don't have a morning cough either, never have. I do get out of breath if I run or during heavy exercise and I'm terrified about COPD.

I used to smoke roughly 40 a day until about 3 years ago when I started ttc then I started to cut down to roughly 15 -20 daily, sometimes less.
I have wanted to stop for ages, read Allen Carr and amassed nicotine aids - patches, gum, lozengers, the little inhaler thing. Also tried vaping but couldn't get away with it. :( I just couldn't summon the motivation. I even hoped the Gynae Dr would tell me that 100% my smoking was what was/is not letting me get upduffed... but he didn't.

Anyway, yesterday I suddenly thought about it, nothing in particular prompted it and something has driven me on since then.
Last night I raked out my patches etc... left them on the bench for morning then went and smoked 3 cigarettes in roughly 10 mins to sicken myself.
Woke up this morning and slapped my patch on and puffed away on the inhaler thing while having my coffee.

I FEEL FINE - no craving really, I haven't wanted to pick one up AT ALL - I'm quite shocked. I tried a lozenge earlier but bleurgh! I don't like them, it gave me hiccups and tasted absolutely horrible.

I'm giving myself little pep talks each time I pass the bathroom mirror.
'You can do it Carbe, think of your lungs, skin, teeth etc.. You won't stink anymore, Cigs are vile etc....'' :)

I'm worried about after dinner - the cig after dinner is probably the one I 'enjoy' most in the whole day. If I feel like I want one I'll maybe try another nasty lozenge or brush my teeth, chew mint or spray some antiseptic in my mouth.... Something to distract and make me not want one.

I'm going to try my best not to eat instead of smoke as I'm already trying to lose weight and have lost a little so I don't want that back on. I've got pumpkin seeds, carrot slices and dried goji berries as well as fruits to pick at if I need to so hopefully I'll be able to continue losing weight.

I don't know why I've posted really, will maybe keep popping on to log it down.
Hopefully I won't succumb, I want to be free from this stinking evil weed.

I was a bit premature with my happiness - It's back :(

Sadly plenty - Coffee stopped working for me a long time ago, whether it be instant or fresh ground - just doesn't work.
I've added back in the olive oil today on top of the flax and prunes. That said - I'm having a 'sunday lunch' for dinner... sprouts, turnip, broccoli - should have an effect :) :)
I've got suppositories for an absolute emergency but it's not that bad yet, it's more inside my abdomen that feels uncomfortable.
I hope it doesn't last much longer, I hate this feeling, I've already got a dodgy digestion system but it's usually my stomach giving me probs.

All is otherwise okay. Still going and today is day 2 without a patch too. I've felt fine and not really any different without one tbh. I will continue to do without but do have some if I feel that I need one.
Still using the inhaler and the chewing gum when needed but the bugger gives me hiccups :)

Hope everyone has a nice weekend.

Tucking - How's it going?

Day 20 and I'm still going strong.
Haven't needed a patch for days now. I'm glad because I was sick of having to tape them on and fed up with the itchiness and muscle pain. Hopefully I won't need them back.

I've found a trigger - Football!
I've had a gob full of nico gum and the inhaler clamped in my mouth but I got through.
Digestion still slow :(

carbe

Is everything ok? You suddenly stopped posting??

Good luck 1944.

1944girl Sorry to hear you've been having a stressful time. That's a massive decision to stop smoking after so long. Good luck and feel free to grumble and whinge here

Carbe I'm hoping you've stopped posting because you don't need to any more, in which case congratulations, you've cracked it!

Digestion still slow - as it's christmas, you could try stuffing yourself with guinness and peanuts dates and figs

I found I needed to change my morning routine. I used to get up and go to the loo pretty much straight away in the mornings. Now I find things work better if I move around for 20 minutes first.