just realised that planning anything in the sn world is plain daft

[2shoes]

today right now I should be in London at a case conference......where am I at home as dd is poorly, she was at respite last night and got the call this morning, so went and picked her up.
in the nt world I could leave her home alone and still go as she is 15.
not in the sn world, so all my plans have bitten the dust.

one good thing is the case conference will still go on without us.

feeling a bit blue now as just had the counsel on the phone.
I find it so hard to think back to dd nearly dying,

oh 2shoes, sounds like you've had a tough day.

was the case conference to do with your dd's birth? it must be very hard to have to think over it all again. and harder because you'd psyched oyurself up to go, and then had to change plans at the last minute.

how is dd now? hopefully she's feeling better too

have a sit down, open the wine, and take it easy this evening

oh that's rough 2shoes, hope you are ok, large glass of wine? Hope dd feels better tomorrow.

yes it was silverfrog, I hate thinking about it at the best of times, lucky it is aminly a blur, with me acting like the worlds worst mum after.....
bigcar it will soon be whisky aclock.
dd seems ok, sore throat, pale and teary at school.

be gentle on yourself, 2shoes

it must be horrid, raking it all up.

have some nice hugs with your lovely girl (if she's anythign like my teenage stepchildren, it's only when their ill you get proper hugs ), curl up and watch a good dvd.

aww I got a lovely hug from her,
she was all teary at respite last night, I asked who she wanted and she said mum awwwwwww

sorry you're both having a rough day-It's hard to look back sometimes-don't know your situation,but we were told ds wouldn't make it - he clearly did !It was a very hard time- hope the whisky helps and DD feels better soon

aww, that was nice, the cuddles get fewer and further between as they get older don't they

I am lucky as she loves cuddles(just not in public now lol)

I know how you feel - life with SN is complicated. I am thinking of returning to work as DS has just started school. He is in an ASD Unit 12 miles away which is great but I am not sure the attached MS school's childcare would accept him. My in-laws who live 20 miles in the opposite direction would help out if I can get DS back home after school. I feel like giving up!!!