I finally lost my rag

[Itsahardknocklife18]

I feel awful, I think after 9 months I have resigned myself to the theory that I probably have quite bad post natal depression. I’m also sleep deprived. I’ve had enough, and no body seems to want to help.

A few weeks ago I posted a bit about my DD and her sleeping problems mixed with my previous cancer diagnosis and how I was getting literally NO sleep at times, but today, I finally lost it, the poor dog got the brunt of it as bless him he’s so enormous that he’s always in the way and when I’m holding baby he gets under my feet and I’m afraid one day I’m going to trip.

My immunity is starting to pack up now, after chemo it’s pretty fragile at the best of times, but at the moment it’s just plain non existent, let’s hope I don’t get c0vid 😂😭

I have to be so overwhelmed that in the end I end up asking family to help but I hate doing it as DD is my responsibility and don’t like to burden other people. My mother is pretty useless and doesn’t really want to help, and when she does it’s because I have no ability to carry on and she obliges begrudgingly.

Hubby is also just as useless as he refuses to get up in the night in the week and when he does (rarely) he throws a wobbly for having to get up, I get it, he’s tired, but hey, join the damn club!! My SIL was having her to help me out now and again but that has become less frequent as she is now working a lot more, my MIL is also useless and I don’t trust her with DD.

Frankly, I’m at a loss, Ive tried everything and don’t know what else to do. I’m not really looking for answers, just ranting and hoping for some moral support.

[pinguwings]

Look at your insomnia - that's the big issue here and no wonder you feel awful with so little sleep.

There are a lot of online resources but GP might be a good first call.

[MaMaD1990]

Nursery is open to everyone I think! Definitely look into it cause it sounds like you need a break.