Sorry for sharing here, but wow! After almost no sex/intimacy for 10 years following a rape aged 18, a horrific childbirth and a complete lack of self-confidence, I secretly ordered myself a vibrator last week, and OMG! I have had the most mind-blowing orgasms and have had such fun discovering my body again. I don't ever recall feeling this sexy (despite my mum tum and birth injuries). My confidence is back and I suddenly feel alive again and in control. I surprised my husband today in just heels and sexy knickers and he couldn't believe the change in me, and it was so nice to be intimate with him again and I was able to just let go and throw myself into it, which he found to be a huge turn on. I've now ordered myself 2 more toys and a whole load of beautiful, sexy lingerie and can't wait for them to arrive. Am not really sure of the purpose of this post, but just wanted to tell someone other than my husband how amazing it feels to have regained my confidence, learned to love myself again and realised how great it feels to let go during sex and release my inner diva!