NC for obvious reasons, as this is VERY personal (and a bit embarrassing!).
So essentially the issue is that I find so so hard to have an orgasm, unless I am giving it to myself through masturbation. I have had quite a few sexual partners, some of them in LTR, others in more of an occasional capacity, but my difficulties with orgasming are frankly always there. I am getting to a point where I am honestly thinking to give up on it (I am 29 btw!).
Orgasm during intercourse doesn't even remotely feel like a possibility. Don't get me wrong, penetration is enjoyable and everything, but it does not even bring me close to orgasming. Literally a million miles away.
Orgasming with clit stimulation (with a partner) has happened a few times in the past, but it is very rare and I generally find that it takes me so long that I don't even try IYSWIM. Also the orgasms that I get with a partner are quite underwhelming, not as strong and enjoyable as the ones I get with masturbation. And it is such a faff that I'd rather just enjoy the "sex situation" without even thinking of my orgasm (or lack thereof!).
Having talked to a few friends, I know I am not alone in feeling this way about female orgasms.
Anyone else out there? Is it weird that I am giving up on having an orgasm with a partner? Why is it so bloody hard for some women to have an orgasm??