After leaving an abusive ex 9 months ago I have tried to remain as independent as possible in bringing up my 3dc all under 5.
My only real source of family support has been my mother who witnessed some of the abuse first hand. The rest of my family has turned a blind eye to things that happened even blaming me for being " very difficult sometimes "
Anyway my mum helps me as much as she can with kids, when my father allows her to, as he is also a very controlling man. The help ammounts to one morning a week she has the two youngest whilst I get some time out. When I get back I generally make her cups of tea, cook her dinner, bath babes whilst she watches, make her more tea she waits for dessert to be handed to her then she leaves saying she is so exhausted
Well i'm left more shattered than usual. And I,m left thinking is she really helping me? Am I being ungrateful?
Well today I recieved a txt from her which had been intended for a friend of hers, it read along the lines of " can't visit today as kids are sick goin to get her shopping collect eldest from school and do bedtime hour with her, another crap week. At least I got swimming this morning "
I'm extremely upset at how resentful she sounds when in fact I stuggled all morning taking 2 babes to drs alone and in fact all I asked her to do was mind babes in afternoon whilst " I " got a little shopping in . My neighbour collected eldest from school and it was embarassing as she was drinking tea when they arrived back . Then I cooked tea whilst she sat drinking tea and then she left at bath time when I most needed help.
I don't know, I feel like shes no help really and I should get by without her like I do anyway it's just that text made me want to cry. I feel completely alone and now I feel my mum isn't the person I thought she was either.
Sorry for rambling kids in background . Hope I make sense . I've got to get some perspective on this