Days before Christmas 24 I found out that my husband had been cheating on me. I said nothing and tried to hold things together so as not to ruin Christmas for the kids, but I was going through his phone and emails gathering evidence and information then eventually in February he found out that I knew. For various reasons that I don’t really want to go into, splitting up is not an option. He ended things with her and promised me that he would never speak to her again. I’m trying hard to believe him but it’s difficult to trust when you’ve been betrayed so badly.
Fast forward to this weekend, he’s away on a boys trip (I am reasonably confident that this is true not a cover), and I’m left with the kids. Then this afternoon I get the post out of the letterbox and there’s a leaflet for a women’s clothing brand addressed to him. It’s a brand that he had bought her a gift voucher for at Christmas 2022. I’ve never seen him get these before although it is possible that he has and he’s been binning them.
So now I’m sitting here wondering if this is from that gift voucher 4 years ago, or if he’s gotten back in touch with her more recently and sent her something else or another voucher. Either way, it’s fucking shit that this huge reminder of his infidelity just landed in my doorstep completely out of the blue. And of course it had to be the weekend he’s away so I can’t even go through his emails to see if I can find anything about it or not to maybe set my mind at ease.
Its just shit and I want to sit here and cry, but I need to hold things together for my boys.
I don’t really know what I’m hoping to achieve by posting this, just needed to get it out I guess.