A man who was a colleague and I have become much closer...exchanging the most beautiful emails (he's 56, a Professor, I'm 47) and I feel like I'm being beautifully courted. I adore his mind and heart. He's supremely generous and intelligent and full of wonder for life. (We are no longer colleagues). We always interacted via Zoom so now we've met three times in person. He's also amazing because he was obese and has now lost 27kg through lifestyle and is close to his goal. We have been to bed twice and it was such an unusual experience. I don't feel physically attracted to him in my usual way because he's not conventionally handsome and looks his age or more (I realise he's still in weight loss transition). His penis was small and didn't work that well. BUT I was very turned on and it felt very erotic and I keep thinking of him, wanting him. He's not the greatest kisser either. I'm not sure either if we look good together. I've been honest and said I'm not sure the sexual draw is as strong as the intellectual/emotional one and he said it is beyond fine...he adores me and just wants to spend time with me and see where it goes. That he wouldn't begrudge me sleeping with someone else etc. Has anyone had this kind of start to a relationship and the sexuality has grown? He must have been very nervous the first two times...he's apparently loved me for a while and had a long break from relationships after his fiance sadly committed suicide in his 30s. He may be my favourite person.