I am Northern Ireland based and I currently separated from my husband and we are no contact. I won't lie it is breaking my heart in a way I never expected. I kicked him out and it was the right thing to do. Everything has gotten so incredibly messy, more so from his side than mine. He has completely changed into a person I no longer recognise. His relationship with our kids is breaking down, but that is on him and up to him to fix as they're young adults and they are really not happy with him and his treatment towards me. They have both told him that he is close to losing them and it is breaking their hearts because his mental health is so poor.
I am meeting with my solicitor this week and I don't want my response to his solicitors letter to he emotive which my first one was, as was his. You can clearly see the hurt from both of us in the letters. He has now asked for mediation, which I wanted from the beginning but he refused, but I don't think I am ready for it.
He has hurt me so badly, moreso in the last 4 months from we separated than what led to our breakup. I am so confused and conflicted by what I want. One minute I want him home and the next I don't and I want to hate him but I don't. I still really love him.
I guess I don't know what to ask from my solicitor this week - anyone else been in a similar situation and can help?