I have left t an abusive relationship after 20 years, and it’s been a few weeks now and I feel so upset. One minute I’m okay then the next I get withdrawal symptoms and only want him back get fixed so we could continue being a family again. We were together for 20 years and have kids, I have been a faithful and a very supportive wife, I have always supported him trough everything. Throughout the years we have struggled financially due to his nature he was very bad with money. Recently I’d found a job I love and started to earn, since then his suspension got worse and he would accuse me of pretending to go to work and be upto no good etc. most days he would upset me when I got back from work. For many years he has put me through hell where at the end I started to have panic attacks and even self harmed. He would call friends and family and tell them I’m a cheater and all sorts of lies.
Buy why do I only remember the good times. He was also a caring and loving husband and father but very miserable and insecure.
He is now begging to take him back and not to destroy our family but I’ve had enough and know that if he comes back it would destroy me and my mental health.
Now that I’m out of the relationship I feel like I’ve broken out of prison but I’m extremely sad about tearing my family apart. Has anyone got any suggestions please