Im a mental health nurse. I have struggled to fit in to quite a well established team (family and friends). A couple of tge team are quite toxic and the manager is part of this particular clique. I tried so hard, I became completely burnt out. I have been having some ongoing investigations but they're all coming back reassuring. Which is good as its been such a worry but im still having stomach problems. Feeling really flat and unmotivated. I had a couple of months off sick and when I went back, experienced bullying from a couple of team members and the manager. I tried to go back again and it was awful. Someone had gone on to my Facebook and took a copy of me smiling with my daughter on her birthday and my manager said 'I thought you were unwell'. I have had ct scan, colonoscopy, and then further scans as they found cysts. I had a complete break down as I felt targeted. I am not sleeping and feel this feeling of dread every day. I can't go back. I actually feel like im done with the NHS, done with nursing.