You see,,,I found out that my girlfriend is having an affair with a professor of mine but she doesn't want to tell me that,,,I found it through her diary and her phone one day and it hits me hard,,,I kept chasing her for the past 2 weeks and she declined it,,the last sunday she lied to me that there is no service in that church I usually go . I kept wondering why,,, Sunday reached I went to see if it it's true,,,I reached there I saw I was a lie,she wanted me to miss that sunday church so as to meet her new professor boyfriend,,it kept hurting me so much but still she doesn't want to tell me she has someone yet,,I didn't tell her I know about hime that she loves him ,,I played cool knowing everything,,but that sunday it forced me to not call her or text her,,tell me what to do .. from that Sunday,,,I kept quiet and said I should start the no contact rule and I stayed Monday Tuesday and Wednesday and she called me while crying saying she missed me,,am lonely,,,I miss your clossiness to me but I didn't respond and she come to where I stayed and started crying so bad and stayed that I should forgive her and said that their I no one that can feel that gap that I used to be in,,I kept wondering so I much and I was confused alot .. I kept calling my friends to seek some advice but I didn't go through so I came to you for help,, what should I do now so as I should not be confused please.
Did she do something good to me by doing that because she was the one who told me to break up at first and told me bad things like I am immature,,I dont know how to love her like other people do,,,she want to be taken like vacation,, she want to be married after finishing her degree for 4 years to someone who has his money so she can stay a good life but growing with someone for a longtime that what matter and we will get the money at the Gods right time but she wants to get money easily,,it toned me apart and I was very sad.. I wanted to stay with her and grow with her and invest with her but she did what she did. I think the professor misled her by telling her she will marry her so she told me to break up with her because I don't have anything and he has a salary and je will keep her good . That wasn't my wish at all but everything went in Vain . She come to where I live and started to cry pleading for me to forgive her and accept her back with all that she told me bad words.