Trigger Warning
Name changed but regular user.
I've been with DP nearly 10 years. We have 2 DC and a mortgaged home together. Relationship a bit up and down over the years but for the sake of DC I've stayed.
DP is well endowed and knows that he needs to be careful so as not to hurt me. Certain positions are not possible for me. TMI sorry but he can't go too deep.
Our last time having sex was over 6m ago. He really hurt me. Mid sex he went really deep/hard with no warning. It was excruciating. We stopped and he finished by himself.
The next day I spoke to him about it and asked why he did it. He was smiling and very jovial about it saying it makes a man feel good. I asked what he meant and he said something about knowing he was so big makes a man feel good. I explained how it really hurt me and if he was hurting me physically in any other way it wouldn't be acceptable but he just sort of laughed it off.
I feel like he has absolutely no respect for me or my body.