So a guy I know asked to go for a night sea swim. We've done it a few times in the past but I backed out as it felt too much of a sort of boyfriend girlfriend thing to do and I think he has a girlfriend (he is not straight about it).
Two weeks ago he asked, I said no then later followed up with please come, theres a meteor show etc etc.
I arrived and he'd organised a fire with loads of logs and gone to lots of trouble. We sat there for hours, caught up, had a quick swim and after a few hours kissed me. We left in silence and we since haven't been in touch.
Half of me just wants to never see or hear from him again ever and then another part of me wants to say how messed up it is to continue to get in touch, make a fancy romantic scene, kiss me and then totally ignore me, not even acknowledge that he shouldn't have kissed me. I want to call him out on being spineless. Probably as I feel like a hypocrite as I walked myself right into it and more than anything angry with myself.