Been with my partner for 14 years. He's 11 years older than me. Been together since I was 17.
5 children together. Hasn't been the easiest of relationships. Tbh this is my only one.
But I'm sort of fed up now, and noticing things I don't like anymore.
If I'm on the phone to my friend ( I don't really have many anymore) but my best friend. It's like he's always listening some where. Then when I get of the phone. He's in a mood and sulks. Some times it's because where she's single she tells me about a guy she's seeing or talking too, and he thinks it's "disrespectful" for her to tell me this??.
Other times it could be because we have made plans and he doesn't like the plans so I don't go.
Can also be when I'm on the phone to mum. He has to have an opinion.
My neighbour is a pain in the arse and is forever knocking to borrow stuff. Granted it's recently slowed down. And I did say to him whatever she knocks for now on, just don't give it and she'll stop. He said that's fine and started refusing to talk to her when he saw her 
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Anyway she knocks today to see how I am and if I have sugar, I actually didn't but we had a 1-2 minute chat and said bye.
He then was sulking and telling me im fake and a weirdo for speaking to her and he doesn't understand me. I was obviously upset and I said to him im sick of being called names, he said it's not his fault im so weird.
I ended up throwing my engagement ring at him and asking him to just piss off.
he's now been on my back asking me if he should break up with me, move out, telling me I have issues etc. then cuddling me but not apologising ans then I feel sort of gas lighting me into thinking I've done something wrong? I don't know.
Im just tired of it. We broke up last year for around 7 months as I caught him messaging other woman for the 10 th time in our relationship. All whilst I was pregnant with our "miracle child" who was conceived whilst he had cancer which I supported him through.
I'm just tired so so tired.
When we was apart I did really well but we gave things another go. And it's gone back to this again. I think I'm just waffling now but why is he like this.