I saw my ex earlier today by chance and initially got a fright because I definitely never wanted to deal with him ever again. Then I got angry, and now I just feel sad and pathetic.
He looked good and happy, and it reminded me how amazing things were when he was like this. When he wasn't a total dick just because he felt like acting like it, or when he decided to lash out. I know that most people won't understand what I mean by this but he really was mesmerizing when you had his full attention, and I felt so meaningless when I saw him doing the same with others today. Part of me feels sad and ashamed, but another one also feels angry and jealous. People like this can't ever change, can they? I just want to stop thinking about the "what if" if it is bound to end badly anyway.